proverbium

the rolling conditions of man are not without consequence
he breathes and becomes indebted to the air he breathes
to be free of this debt, he must cease to exist
and so he must realize he is never truly free

I am never truly free

a red alert sounds
somewhere on the curving plane of my head
somewhere inside that cannot be seen
grey matter sloshing about with translucent intestine
spongy organs behind chalky bone
chemical reactions and spiritual contractions
a red alert bangs and buzzes
like a holy alarm on Zion's mount

this is a calling

this is God calling, will you accept the long-distance charges?
"gawd?"
No, God, your creator
"put him...her...it... through"
connecting
"hello? gawd? this is me, is that you?"

...this is me, is that you? this is me is that you? this is me, is that you? is that you? is that you? you? you...

wrong number.
wrong calling.
why does man insist on thinking he can connect me to gawd?

the rolling significance of man is not without meaning
he is born and becomes a product of his birth
to be given free will without choice is not free will
we are automatons
self-operating always
but we can't reproduce our origin

i have no origin

a red alert resounds
somewhere hidden secretly
somewhere within that cannot be known
mirror mask images of self-projected perceptions
shadowy dreams hovering above silent waters
the beginning before the beginning
a red alert burns and blazes
like a holy spirit on the mezzanine earth

this is salvation

this is salvation's army, will you join the bleating ranks?
"bleeding?"
No, bleating, loudly, unashamed
"i'll need time to think"
you could die tomorrow
"would that be so bad?"
are you prepared to meet your maker?
"id say its about time..."
the fear of God is the beginning of wisdom.

fear of god?
fear brings salvation?
the fear of god is the beginning of fear.

god is not welcome here.