No Church of England in sight

When the last remaining patrons had stepped outside
I turned and asked the Episcopalian woman, "Why?"
To which she promptly replied,
"Because humans are not confusing enough"
and I laughed before crying
Because that is the order of all things True:
Our bellies open and our eyes close
and the tears are wretched from another place
perhaps even another person
folded up inside of us -
a laughing, crying fool who hasn't heard the joke nor felt the pain
but has everything to gain
by being vulnerable

She calmed my nerves with a glass of gin
and broke the silence when
she simply sighed,
which was her way of saying
"Sometimes we do what we think is right because we cannot prove it otherwise."
And her eyes opened wide
and she took in a mouthful of darkness and fumes
and our mutual understanding became our tomb
As it goes, to understand anything
is to be confused with who we once were
before we understood
"So there is certain death for anyone
who seeks to be enlightened" she whispered, taking back another shadow in glass

I turned to her and asked,
"Why not do what we know to be wrong and wait for a sign from above?"

"Because that is not Love and God does not play games"

"My dear, Love is not easily defined... and God...well, He created us in his image...to play."

When the last remaining patrons had stepped outside
I turned and asked the Episcopalian woman, "Why?"
and we let the darkness inside.